IGNORANCE

My ignorance costed me huge problems in life. I started to gain weight when I was in Standard 5, and got my shape back when I was in Form 3. My bad habit of taking things for granted caused my weight gain until now. I made myself lazy and it turned me into a slacker. I often used the word "takpa lah" back in those days. Yet, I am struggling at the gym to regain my fitness. Insecurities hit me much and at one point, I am really afraid to be single for the rest of my life. Looks are subjective but if we don't work for it, the subjectivity will always go to the negative side. Here we go, day 10 of 100 days challenge to 65kg!

RACISM IN MALAYSIA, WHO'S BEHIND IT?

We all know the fact that nobody in this world was born as a racist. We were instilled by the positive values of tolerance and good assumption towards other races at home and even at school, as we are currently living in a multiracial country. But do we noticed that, our position as Malays is threatened as time moves on? I know I should not write this in my blog but I will tell you 3 true stories (I got to change the names by request of someone) for you to sit back and evaluate my points whether it is true or it is just something I created to be the next Ibrahim Ali:

Story 1

Ani was an excellent student who studied in Sekolah Menengah (P) Pudu. The school principal was a Chinese, and she had became a headmistress for 10 years. Though Ani is a top scorer in her school, she never stepped her foot into the A class (in Malaysia, we all know that A class was for the brightest set of students in the school). Why? When Ani was in Form 1, she only managed to get average results in her exams and accepted the fact that she only able to place herself in the C class. But when she was in Form 2, she got the 1st overall ranking among the Form 2 students and only managed to place herself in the B class. During that year, the principal suddenly changed the system, splitting the A and B classes by the religious subject that they will take the following year. So logically, are they any Malays will be in the A class if the A class is for those who are not taking Islamic Studies?

Story 2

Muhamad applied to be a volunteer for the annual mega book sale in KL. Knowing his application will take a long time, he opted to volunteer for a programme in Zoo Negara. After 1 month since he sent his details to the organizer, he was told that his application is not accepted as he is too young (he aged 18). When he went to the book sale, he met with a sales assistant who was 17, and a Chinese. He also noticed that all the volunteers are Chinese, and he cant find any other races as volunteers there. Hence, I would like to ask, discrimination who?

Story 3

Kumar is an average government servant who worked for 10 years with this one government department. His colleagues know him as a very diligent worker, rarely take any days off and always be in the office on time. A few months later, a Chinese young man joined his department. Working together as a team, his Chinese colleague gained promotion after just 1 year of working. When he reviewed his performance marks, he noticed that his mark was extremely lower than the new guy, caused him to confront his Chinese boss later on.

Well those 3 stories are based on real stories with the names changed and I hope no one will take any actions or any other legal accusations on my stories above.  Here, I just want to show you how discrimination are not started by the Malays (like other Malaysians said) but it was started by the other side of society in this country. 1Malaysia spirit, a very brilliant idea from our Prime Minister but seems its more to be idealistic rather than realistic. How can we live in a country that literally against racism but only for the advantage for another side? Is that the real justice we've been seeking for? I have no sense of racism, but I can sense fascism among races nowadays.

SUITED CRIMINALS AND ARMED VIGILANTE

Since I was a young boy, I was taught to be a person who wears suits and shoes, the person who become representative to the locals and generates the ideas for the betterment of this country. As I get older and wiser, I realize that its better to be a guy with ragged clothes that has a heart to sacrifice for one's good. We always think that liars and timers work at night, but these days those people work in the hall and they also gained people trust. Hopefully I wont be arrested by the Sedition Act because it just a statement from my mind.

FEMINISM

If you are a male, people will always label you as sexist whenever you say bad things or looking down to a female. For them, you are not a gentleman if you mistreated them like a queen, or being their slaves in shopping malls if you are her boyfriend. The concept of feminism is always confusing, and the complex mind of women making it even harder to understand. So the thing here is that is feminism upholds justice for women or its a philosophy used by women to conquer the world and let the world know that they are better than men? No offence but this suddenly crossed in my mind.

GROW UP

As a child, I'll always think that Profesor Xavier is a devoted person As I grow up, I realized that Magneto is a realist.

HATE

I have this one problem. When I hate a person, I'll hate them hard. I'll hate them like forever. Maybe my ego is too solid, and seems it'll never been destroyed forever. Just some rantings from my mind. Hopefully it doesn't offend anyone.

LOST AND FORGOTTEN

Well life isn't always deal swiftly as what we expected. There is one saying that tells us we will start growing as we are losing our friends. As a I become older and older, I realized that I am being forgotten by my old mates, and seems I am no longer in their memories. Well, maybe my ego shows off all my feelings but deep in my heart, being forgotten is the worst thing that could happen in one's life. I should've lowered my ego by now